Donald Trump is The President of the United States of America

I wasn’t going to write about this, it’s still too fresh and dominating my mind. Everyone is talking about it constantly, it seems like there is no other topic. But, I think I would be remiss to not record my thoughts. Any historic event should be well recorded and I will never truly know how I felt at the time again once it has past. Even now, a few days later, I’m removed from the initial reactions.

On Tuesday I was nervous. I didn’t truly believe Trump would win, though. I think I was more nervous about what would happen after the election, if Trump would concede peacefully or incite some sort of uprising. Or, at the very least, sue to have all the ballots recounted, or something. Myself, and everyone else, was utterly stunned as we saw the election results come in. It was all happening in this sort of slow motion. It just very slowly and steadily became worse and worse and the impossible started seeming more and more possible. The pundits started running out of ways that Hillary could still pull out a victory and the discussion began to immediately turn to panic. Pundits arguing how this could happen, what would happen now, is there any chance she could still pull ahead. What combination of state wins would give her the win and then it became impossible for her to win and Donald Trump was the President-elect.

Waking up the next morning I had that same feeling of dread that I had after my dad had died. Trying to figure out if the preceding evening’s events had happened, or if it was a dream. Then slowly coming to terms with your new reality. I haven’t seen a reaction to something like this since 9/11 (and coincidentally this was 11/9). People are truly stunned, scared, shocked, outraged, not knowing what to do and how to go on. I am in Los Angeles so this very directly affects many people here. I worry now that people look at me and wonder if I voted for Trump. Everyone is angry, everyone is in disbelief. We have no idea what is going to happen. At some point the man had every opinion on every subject possible. You can be optimistic and hope that things he said were just ways to get votes, or that at some point he once had the same belief as you so maybe that’s how he really feels. But, that’s what’s so scary. We have no idea who this man is. We know things he has said, and some of them are very scary. Like deporting millions of people and banning Muslims and “testing” Muslims. It’s starting to seem less and less likely that Donald Trump is actually a liberal in disguise. He’s surrounding himself with the worst of the worst of people for his cabinet. Choosing literally the worst possible people for each position. As of now there’s talk of Sarah Palin for Secretary of Interior, a woman who wants to drill and mine every resource in America. Ben Carson for Secretary of Education, a man who doesn’t believe in evolution. Then the guy he has as candidate for EPA doesn’t think global warming is real, not to mention that he wants to completely eliminate the EPA altogether. Rudy Giuliani as Attorney General, a man who seems absolutely racist and literally mentally insane. Then of course you have the global warming denying, anti-abortion, homophobic Vice President of Mike Pence.

This doesn’t seem real. This seems like an absolute nightmare. I cannot imagine that our country is in the hands of these horrendous people. How can we possibly go on? How can our country survive this? The people that voted for Trump hate the people who didn’t vote for him so much. It seems like we are on the verge of another Civil War. We cannot tolerate what it is that these people are proposing for our country, and the people that voted for Trump cannot tolerate what it is we want this country to be. “A house divided will not stand” and this is the most divided most people can ever remember us being. I do not know what will happen but already there have been enormous protests throughout the major cities in the country every day since the election. Hundreds of thousands of people are taking to the streets against Trump and everything he stands for. On the surface I think the protests are pointless because what are you protesting? He won the election, we cannot change that now. I feel like I will protest only once he starts actually enacting things I find abhorrent. But, I do see a purpose to the protests. It shows solidarity, it’s cathartic for the enraged people taking part. It also gives comfort to the legitimately scared people in this country, that they are not alone, that we will attempt to fight Trump every step he takes. The younger people are the most incensed. Their culture has been one of acceptance and inclusiveness and (some might say) being overly politically correct. They cannot fathom how anyone could feel the way they do to elect Trump, that there could be so many is truly horrifying. This is the most progressive generation of all time and they are in absolute stunned shock. All they have ever known is Obama.

My girlfriend, Elizabeth, is 21 and she, and others she is friends with were in utter despondency after the results of the election. She is very progressive, college student, vegan, etc. This is outrageous to her, and rightfully so. I became despondent as the election results were coming, but I somehow woke up the next day totally reinvigorated. I felt like everyone was so depressed, there was such a palpable sense of dread and negativity and just awfulness that next day covering the whole country. I wanted to try to be the one bright spot, for people that are there for me when I’m down, so they could have someone. I spent the day with Elizabeth pepping her up. The truth is Hillary won the popular vote, by quite a margin. It’s important to remember that the majority of people who voted (and it was only like 49% of those eligible :() didn’t vote for Trump. And of the people that voted for Trump, maybe I am naive, but I truly believe they voted for him in spite of his racism, sexism, and bigotry, etc. Which, is still completely reprehensible in my opinion. It doesn’t make it okay. But the truth is that they can be reached, they’re not necessarily virulently racist, and it is unfair to label them that, I suppose. I also told her how I remember living under George W. Bush, and I remember what it was like to have a government that you didn’t feel represented you, or that you were a part of. And that, the important thing was that I never lost who I was, and neither did millions of other Americans. We didn’t suddenly all become conservatives because our government was. And the proof of that is that after Bush we had Obama. Because there were millions of liberals who were still there ready to vote for a change. Again, we will keep our morals and ideals and we will fight everything Trump does. If anything, people that voted for Trump would love to see some coastal elite liberals being devastated and they would LOVE for them to shut up and disappear. They got their president, now let’s not give them the country they want. They’d love nothing more than their country with Trump as president with none of us in it. This is not time for us to get quiet and recede, now is when we make ourselves more known than ever. I suppose all these things have made me feel like I now have a purpose again. I actually feel less despondent, now that Trump is President. It’s very counter intuitive but I feel like I’m entering a world that now actually needs me, and people like me. It would be a gift to them for me to kill myself or be a failure nobody. I also told Elizabeth that not only are her and I in this together, and millions of like-minded people, but also, guess who the President of Barack Obama is now? Guess who Hillary Clinton’s president is? Guess who Warren Buffett, Elizabeth Warren, Bernie Sanders, Bill Gates, Bill Clinton, John Kerry, Joe Biden, Bob Dylan, Martin Scorsese, Corey Booker, etc, etc, etc, guess who they have as their President now? Donald Trump. Donald Trump is their president, as well. We are all in this together. None of us have it worse than the other. If you think they will sit idly by while this country goes to shit, you’re out of your mind. Not to mention the millions of people that didn’t vote for Trump and who are now taking to the streets. All of these people are a force against Trump.

Just a week ago I’d have said there’d never be a chance for another Civil War in this country, but now I am not so sure. Partly just because of how horrible the atmosphere of the country is now, but also just I truthfully never believed Trump would be President, so anything seems possible now. I didn’t think he’d run, I didn’t think he’d win the primary, I didn’t think he’d win the general. People now are joking “well, we didn’t think he’d do all that and proved us wrong, so maybe he’ll be an amazing president!” I’m not so optimistic. I think he just enjoyed running for President. The presidency will be in the hands of his cabinet, which is horrifying. Even more horrifying is the fact that the Republicans also won the House and Senate. They are completely unchallenged now. After 8 years of not allowing Obama to do anything, they are going to be able to do whatever they want with our country. People are terrified, liberal people are terrified. We feel like the rest of the country got conned, because they’re not that smart, and they’re angry and they’re racist. It truly feels like an us for them sort of thing. A matter of who gets to decide how this country goes. And both sides are the opposite and we hate the idea of the other side’s vision. Jobs are never coming back to America. Not manufacturing jobs at least and not to the scale it was to be able to support massive cities with good wages. Automation is here to stay and will only get worse. Global warming is real. The future of technology is in renewable energies. America needs to be the leader in this field or else it will fall behind forever. We create the technologies and then become the centers of manufacturing the technology. Otherwise, we will fail. Trump’s policy of denying global warming and not only undoing means to stop it, but approving policies that will speed up and worsen the crisis. It is suicidal. It is the most crucial issue facing us and we are going to willfully choose to make it worse. This may be something that cannot be undone, even if he is only in office 4 years. All the other issues are horrifying but honestly if global warming happens to the extent it is heading, nothing else matters, jobs are irrelevant, gas prices are irrelevant, health care, all of it, who cares if there is no earth to live on or food to eat? These people protesting right now are just making the Trump supporters feel justified in their choice, they think they need law and order and we are some rioting horde that wants to destroy the USA. All it would take is a Trump protester to kill a cop or more white on . black violence and I can see this country erupting into civil war. It is that tense right now and awful.

As of right now there are vain attempts to try to get Trump from becoming President at all. Since Trump only won the electoral college vote, people are claiming that the electors can choose to switch their vote to Hillary instead and she’d be President. The reason the electoral college was invented was to ensure that there was never someone so unfit, unqualified or awful that would become President. The founding fathers thought the people were stupid and wanted to make sure there was a failsafe. Honestly, I was really kind of hoping that the election was rigged like Trump was saying so that Hillary would in, regardless. It was almost sort of refreshing to see that Hillary lost because now we know for goddamn sure that it is not rigged. Whoever would be “rigging” it would never have allowed Trump to win. Anyway, it seems like if the electoral college actually did that, that would lead to an open armed rebellion by Trump supporters. I think there’s no chance of that happening and in most states it is illegal for them to even do that. We could handle an open armed rebellion right now though since the country is still relatively stable and Obama is in power. Either way, I don’t see that happening. Another thing going on is Trump’s various lawsuits, there was alleged rape of a 13-year-old but that was apparently dropped. Then there’s talk that Trump was seriously colluding with the Russians and that Russians hackers might have even tampered with vote tally results. People are demanding that an investigation be done into Trump’s entanglements with Russia. Some people claim that Putin has a video of Trump at an orgy and is using that to blackmail him. While the election results were coming in this NBC reporter, who seemed drunk possibly or crazy, was talking about how he had been in touch with Russian hackers and had told him that they influenced the election so that Clinton would lose and that once Trump became President they would release things about him to makes him seem horrible. All of this in an attempt to destabilize America and our government. I kind of want to see where that goes. I am not totally sure if there was vote manipulation by someone. It would be insane if it was done by outside forces especially. We have hackers, too, why aren’t they attacking Trump? When Trump is President they should just constantly hack him and his government. So, there is still this feeling of maybe there is a way to stop Trump from becoming President altogether. Right now Obama is still our President. This year and this election have been so unbelievable that I think people believe anything is possible at this point. It would make total sense if somehow Trump never ends up becoming President.

Then, of course there’s the talk of how long would he actually be president. Most people don’t believe he ever wanted to be President and he will either defer all responsibilities to someone else, probably Mike Pence, or he will just resign and of course spin it in some way that makes it seem like it was his idea and it’s a huge triumph. Then there’s those that believe he will get impeached, possibly even by his own party. If he’s not a real Republican they will turn on him and if he does anything so blatantly illegal he will have to be impeached. This seems pretty likely to me, he does seem very reckless and shady that I think he will slip up. That’s assuming though that his government is ethical enough to do the right thing and follow the law, that is to assume that he doesn’t take on extraordinary powers and becomes above the law. We really do not know at this point and all of this seems possible. We feel like that all laws could just become suggestions. If people don’t all get behind the idea of this country, who enforces the laws, who follows them, it doesn’t matter. Then of course there’s the fear he will be assassinated. That would be truly horrible. The people that voted for Trump did so because they are so afraid, especially afraid of the people that didn’t vote for Trump. That would confirm all their fears and they love the man so much, there’d be a civil war. People are saying that’s why he chose Pence as VP, because he’s so fucking awful that it would be worse to have him as President.Then of course there’s also the fact that there is no way Trump can make anything he promised come true and the people that elected him will actually turn him and become enraged at him. He has become the establishment.

He can’t build the wall. He can’t deport 11 million people. I’d be shocked if he really banned Muslims, or created some sort of vetting for Muslims. I definitely do doubt he’ll allow in any Syrian refugees. It seems most likely he will immediately end Obamacare, which I don’t know where that leaves me if I will any longer have health insurance, which sucks, because I really need it. I don’t know if he can or will eliminate any cabinet departments like the EPA and Department of Education. I do dread and believe he will destroy most if not all environmental regulations. I think he will sell off large swathes of public land for private use for mining and logging and ranching, etc. The only good thing I can see him doing is rejecting the TPP, but now I’m not even sure he’ll do that. He’s already inviting in the establishment and wall street to be part of his cabinet. It doesn’t seem like he’ll deliver on any of the real populist stuff. He supporters definitely got conned but I think he is invincible to them. He is a demagogue. He will blame everything on something else, even if it makes utterly no sense, like how there are no Democrats to fuck up anything anymore. Of course he will also nominate a super conservative justice, which is terrifying and has long-lasting effects. There is a real push right now for Obama to somehow get his justice nomination appointed without Congress, since they have refused to even consider, let alone approve any nomination by Obama.

The only real hope now is this idea that the Republicans might be unimpeded and have the majority, but they will see the atmosphere of the country and realize there might be some measures they’re wanting to do that would have a net negative effect with how much upheaval there would be in the country. But, I don’t know if they really care. And if they really are fascists then maybe they will just violently crush and silence opponents. Trump is already starting to attack newspapers about how they’re reporting on him. People hoped the tweets and pettiness would stop once Trump got elected, but it does not seem that way. There was a lot of “oh, he just did that to get elected” and “he’s not really like that, he’s just trying to get votes”. That’s a lot to assume, but I think people got exactly what they saw. There’s nothing that he’s going to turn into or that he really is. It’s awful right now. It’s hard to tell if hate crimes have been rising because of Trump’s election, or if it’s just that the news is reporting it now to make a story. But, it definitely looks like quite a few violent hate crimes have been committed since his election that were because of Trump’s election. That was the fear going into this. We thought that just by Trump having the nomination or any national acceptance that it emboldened and validated racists and bigots. We thought if he became president that it would basically just unleash a torrent of hate and racism we had never seen. That it was now accepted, because the President represented these things. Now you can do whatever you want, your president supports your actions. That is one of the main fears and it really seems to be coming true so far and Trump isn’t even president yet. This is still Obama’s America. It just seems like it is about to become an apocalyptic scenario of race wars and mass murders.

I just hope nothing happens to Obama. We need him around. I want him to make a video message for us all every night for the next four years to let us know everything is okay and to hang in there. I feel like this really ruins his legacy, though. He was finishing so strong and we were really starting to appreciate him once we realized what we were about to end up with, either Hillary or Trump. He has one of the highest approval ratings of any President ever. But, now Trump is president. And not only is Trump going to undo everything Obama did, or try to, which ruins Obama’s legacy, but also the mere fact that Trump got elected will make Obama go down as someone that couldn’t keep America together and didn’t recognize a growing problem within the country. That is on him now and whatever happens with Trump and after Trump is in someway going to be on Obama’s shoulders. Which is very sad, because he was a very good president and I don’t think it is fair. And I didn’t fully agree with Obama and I didn’t vote for him his second term, but as far as presidents go, he was great, but we can still do better.

That’s where we turn now. To figuring out how to come back from this. In my opinion this could end up being the greatest thing ever for progressives. This just infuriated and energized and radicalized so many people. They just wrote their own death warrant. The people need to take control over the DNC to make sure that the party’s direction is with the people and for the people and that any candidates are for the people, not chosen by the elites. The people didn’t choose Hillary, the DNC chose Hillary for them. We wanted Bernie. Bernie I believe would have beat Trump. All of these young people who are outraged are now going to become so well-versed in politics and law and are going to be so aware and conscious of what Trump and his government is doing. He will be so closely watched, there is no room for error. All of these people will no longer take voting for granted and believe it is not a big deal or doesn’t make a difference or you can be passive about it. We see now that everything can be taken away in an instant. We truly never believed Trump would be President. We were all blindsided. We literally had those things circulating about how people said nothing like Hitler could ever happen in their country and we all believed that as well. We thought, nope, that could never happen, not in the USA, other countries, but never here. It is quite humbling. I no longer feel like America is the greatest country in the world, I do not know which country is, but we are like a big ship that just got our engines knocked out by a torpedo. We are sitting dead in the water. I just hope no terrorist attacks happen any time soon. We couldn’t handle it, which is why they might do it. Hopefully we will get real progressives in there soon. When the pendulum of politics swings far one direction it swings back even farther in the opposite. We will get someone so progressive and liberal into the White House in 2020 that it will make Bernie Sanders look like Reagan. They just fucked themselves real bad.

But, this is terrifying. We have absolutely no idea what is going to happen. For a year we all were so excitedly awaiting for November 8 to come so this could all be over with and we could go back to our lives but now it feels like all I want to do is go back before November 8. Sort of the same way as 9/11, I remember the world so much better pre-9/11 and we can never go back, I feel like I immediately started thinking about what the world was like before Trump became President, and I feel like I will long for the pre-11/9 world, as well. I’m so terrified to find out what Trump will do, but at the same time it is somewhat exciting (in a bad way). Can’t wait to see what happens. I am living true history. This and 9/11 I can tell are the 2 most significant world moments that have happened in my life.

It kinda feels like Les Miserables. People don’t seem to care so much about their own lives anymore. This is their life now. Fighting this. Coming together. People are scared and rightfully so. We’re all looking for inspiration and motivation. Someone to lead us. It’ll be interesting to see who comes out as our leaders to get us through this. So far it only seems like Michael Moore has really taken a role in organizing and planning. He’s not in stunned shock. He’s doing stuff. Right from the start. Good for him. He know that this would happen and why it would happen so I trust he would know how to come back from it.


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